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THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT AND DONATIONS!!!!!

thank you so much--i really cannot thank you enough for everything (you know who you are)! ^_^ i need all of the support i can get, and--and--i feel really special and blessed!!! *blush, blush*
all of the words of kindness, donations, encouragement, prayers, and hugs are helping a lot.

if you would still like to donate (b/c i need as much help as i can get for this opportunity), please click on the nifty button below!!!

thank you so much times infinity--this really means A LOT to me!

-Ariss
je.ris.nue@gmail.com

ps--sorry if you see this more than one time--but, once again, i cannot thank you enough for your support!!!

all i have to say is YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

<3 ariss

guess whose 21st birthday is tomorrow??


ME!!! WOOT, WOOT!!!

Who: Ariss

Where/When: Ok—so I have an opportunity to go on a French study trip to Quebec’s Bouchereau Lingua this summer for college credit. This study trip will be approximately 10 days (during the summer) where I’ll be able to stay with a French-speaking host family and attend French-conducted classes for 4 hours each day in order to increase my French skills by immersion.

What: I was awarded a partial scholarship by Hinds for being a student representative on this trip for about half of the trip cost; however, I am still in need of money out of pocket for my passport, plane tickets, food, and contract fees with the famous language school. Since I’m a full-time student with a job, I’m having difficulties maintaining the deadlines for the payments on my own. I decided that I would do some extra odd jobs around my school and work schedule to help supplement the money I am currently raising, but I’m still lacking a considerable amount.

In order to help meet my deadlines, I will need your help! I will be accepting money donations of all sorts to aid in making this trip.

How: Please just click on the PAYPAL donation button below, and it will direct you to the donation page where you can enter any amount that you please. I am asking for at least a $1.00 minimum amount, but still –anything- will be appreciated! Even though this is short notice, I am in urgent need of your donations soonat least by Monday, March 5.


I really appreciate your support for my education and expansion in my cultural experiences!!! If you have any questions, please feel free to e-mail me or leave me a comment.

Thank you!

-Ariss
je.ris.nue@gmail.com



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PS--Sorry if you see this on your page multiple times! I am posting this on all of my journals.

1. www.bookcrossing.com -- i'm registered there, but i have yet to send a book out into the wild. also, www.1000journals.com, www.mirrorproject.com, 20things.org--so WONDERFUL!!! ^_^ these type things inspire me.

2. nachos cozumel at cozumel mexican restuarant and bar.

3. the little-big record store in raymond.

4. sending care packages to friends, just because. ^_^ (i just started this, so if you haven't gotten one--you'll get one soon!)

5. the new beck cd called "the information." it comes with free stickers and a weird dvd.

6. michel gondry.

7. a new book called "faeries" by yoshitaka amano.

8. my hair in it's natural state. blame it on the power of these current rainy days.

9. a black, little art sketch book i can tuck in my purse.

10. anime on youtube.com

11. weird jewelry to go with weird shirts.

12. my japanese workbook + cd.

13. designing hoodies for hanelisa and myself.

14. random ideas for S.S. Ira that stem from a night of eva, flcl, cirque du soleil, greek mythology, fairy tales, book reading, listening to old japanese anime soundtracks, and long conversations.

15. movie nite and costume designing with friends.

16. cereal for dinner for a week straight.

17. finding $1.99 shirts at the underground.

18. a random "road trip" with friends.

19. watching "the L word" season 3 with kelly.

20. good karma.

( oi! usagi-chan!!! )

if you haven't seen these, please enjoy!!! this series is on my top list. eh--now back to doing this research paper from hell. teh suck. ;-;

<3 ariss

this is yet another reminder of the path in front of me i must mend before i cross over another stone.

i am an envious person.

...

i mean, why?

maybe it's because everywhere i go, i hear about how great a person is and i listen with the ears of my body instead of my "inner ears." my inner ears must strain to listen to my own voice inside my heart instead of the noise that is going on around me.

that is what i will do from now on. however, i will not fault myself for allowing myself to compare and compete against others every now and then. many things in life can be compared to seasons, and this is one of them. i cannot stop a season, and i believe the same aspect applies to my feelings. i will allow myself to feel just as much as i allow myself to improve.

another reason i have to ask myself why am i an envious person, is because i know deep in my soul that i am a person of high-value. and i know that i shine the most by being honest and humble at the same time. i do not try to hide and i do not try to be outstanding. that in itself is very valuable, because i can possibly encourage people to do the same by just living my life. then again, maybe i am and maybe i am not... but either way, i am living my life as if no one were around to tell me how much i shine. or at least that is what i'll do as time goes by. looking back, i used to be so hung up on whether or not someone compliments me and use that as fuel to be motivated about most things i do in life, but right now--i can see that it is happening less and less. maybe i already have the ball rolling for this goal, after all??

also, why should i be envious of people that cannot even tell the truth to themselves?? a lot of people cover or compensate their hang-ups and insecurities by lying themselves in order to convince others. i am a strong believer of how people say a lot of things aloud only to convince themselves. sorta like when you make a bad grade on a test that you studied so hard for, and you say out loud when you get the test--"i don't care!" GRACIOUS--YOU KNOW YOU CARE!!! so do something about it. sooner or later, the truth will bleed from every pore. and, honestly, i'd rather not HEMMORRHAGE MY TRUTH. it's a little too easy to slip into that mode, since that's what is mostly taught to us. but as the jedi master yoda mentioned in Star Wars (and what it's also what the martha said unto me ^_^), "you must unlearn what you have learned." it's a relief to finally grow the fuck up and understand that.

also, a bit of knowledge i obtained a couple of years ago from an ancient chinese proverb--"you must strive to be a full bottle."

my interpretation of that can be demonstrated through two water bottles: a half-full one and a full one. shake the half-full one... noisy isn't it?? this shows how when arrogance can get the best of us. many of us want to spread what little we know through talk, gossip, bragging, noise, noise, and more noise b/c of arrogance. now shake the full bottle...it's much quieter--and even more pleasant sounding. compared to the toilet-bowl-sounding-half-full-bottle, it sounds more like a river. this represents how knowledge can be filled throughout, and isn't spread through the constant noise of arrogance. my goal is to become a "full bottle."

*whew*

with that being said, i can continue mending a crack here and there in my pathway. my Way will be filled with beautiful patches and cracks filled with wild grass sprouting in between the gaps. it will be perfectly imperfect--and i'll be happy with that. ^_^

-ariss

acts 1-4 (in pieces)! i dug it up on youtube! mostly for my sake... b/c it makes me happy.

( moon click powah!!! )

( manipulate )

hey eric-san!!! i oddly remember you telling me that one of your favorite episodes of sailor moon (the anime) is "tuxedo melvin." i was watching a few of the old episodes and i came across it! here it is--i hope you can watch it!

for some reason, acts 1-4 of the live action "pretty guardian sailor moon" from japan are missing (although i've seen them, but i just didn't want any reading this to get confused...). yay for lj for allowing embedded videos! i want to see the sailor moon live action episodes from china, now. i need to post invader zim, rocko's modern life, chobits, bollywood movie clips, sailor moon (anime),and the angry beavers (etc.) shows on here!!! mwhahahahaha!!!

PGSM Act 5

frustrating friendships. when i was younger i thought friendships were about being there for people and the same thing being done for you. it was love and not about whether or not a person is useful like a tool. i don't know... that may sound naive or emo. i don't know about other people, but i that's definitely something i find important. but, man, learning how to unlearn is quite difficult when it deals with other people. i'm still happy and the way people view me shouldn't change the way i value myself, but i can't help but feel weird. i'm just thankful to have a few "root" people in my life--i mean, most people go through life looking over their shoulder all of the time, but i am blessed with some good family and friends. i should look at what i have in front of me instead of worrying over what i have to lose. the loss of some people is occurring for a reason. i choose to let whatever reason it may be help me in the path to becoming a more enlightened person.

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that sounds like yoda speaking...

i just thought this was cute. thanks anna!

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.  ((sometimes...))	✓ I love to play video games.  ((but i can't afford it...))	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.  ((on;y b/c my friend watched it, and i walked in on it, i swear!))	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )

even though i've been mostly working, i've had time for a little fun. ^_~

i'm getting ready for the jackson music awards on monday. so, i bought some new shirts--one is a 70's striped wrap shirt that have red, gold, purple, and plum colors in it and the other is a kimono type shirt that is mainly yellow with flowers and a teal lining at the collar that has a small obi-type tie in the back. most times, i just really don't care about clothes (mainly b/c i can't afford the girly ones i want...), but it makes me happy to buy some wild feminine clothing every now and then. i generally wear jeans, some kind of cartoon/anime shirt (since it's affordable and i <3 cartoons/anime), and some kind of special earrings--so i really don't feel girly all of the time. but it feels so good to get some new clothes!!!

i also got a rinse in my hair yesterday. i chose l'oreal's chilled plum color pulse and i was really happy with the results.



you can only see it in different lighting since my hair is so dark (especially outside, in the sun)--so it's really subtle, but it's still there! ^_^ i didn't want to do anything too dramatic, b/c i'm working in a corporate setting and i may be finding a new job soon. but this color made me feel so good since it's something a little more exciting!

i think next time i'm gonna try a redder rinse so it'll be a bit more noticable on my dark brown hair.

yesterday, i got to visit martha (and the anners and will) in star, ms. her grandparents made a really wonderful dinner and i got to relax and talk to her a bit before she goes to hattiesburg today. everybody is going to be in hattiesburg this summer! erica is there for summer school at USM, brittany starla is also there for summer school, mom is going to be there in the middle of july for a teacher's workshop and she'll be staying on the USM campus, and natalie, possibly kiet, pika, kevin, arrie, and byron are there, too. it's crazy! that just means i'll have to visit whenever i get a chance! ^_^

things are going pretty well. i got to chill with sean, anna, mel, mel's brother, and keni the other nite. before that, i went to king buffett with sean and jenn and watched howl's moving castle (hayao miyazaki!!!) with them, and candace and erica came in town for the 4th, and even though i had to work, i got to spend time with them! my aunt is gonna help me sew a kimono style shirt from scratch and i'm still working on my geisha purse. work is going okay... i guess... i'm just frustrated with david. but it'll all work out--i can't let one (stupid) man bother me. he's the new general manager--and if he ends up firing me one day for being "insubordinate" then oh well... there are other jobs. maybe i'll get a new job soon? if i apply to a lot of places, that is. and i'm a hard worker! ...although, i wish i had a little more days off so i can have a little more time for myself.

i also finished a computer drawing today, after working a close shift!


i tried a new technique for the background. this was done by mouse in about 15-20 minutes in photoshop. the girl is supposed to sorta represent me. the whole idea was sorta inspired by the movie "howl's moving castle" by hayao miyazaki (book by diana wynne jones), and the anime style was inspired by the gainax animation style. i wanted to keep a sloppy, monochromatic style for the girl (and this is going to sound so emo...) b/c it sorta represents how i and a lot of people are imperfect, yet we search for the perfection outside of ourselves. we should just simply be and accept ourselves, and that'll be the best thing... at least for me. ^_^

even though i know, intimately, how patience is a virtue--sometimes i can't help but jump ahead of myself. i sometimes have to remind myself to deal with whatever it is that is in front of me as best as i can.

however, i'm still waiting for things i shouldn't wait for. i should just do and not expect. but, hell, i'm not perfect... and sometimes i need to give myself days where things are a bit disorderly. it's as healthy as having things in order most days--it keeps a balance in my life. i will allow myself to feel whatever i want to feel and deal with myself accordingly.

i'm still waiting for a guy that is "on my level..." whatever that means. i've never had that.

i'm still waiting for these stupid japanese lessons from someone else besides myself so that i may learn more.

i'm still waiting to animate with something more than the old-fashioned tools, so that i won't be obselete whenever i venture into my career. it makes me nervous to be so limited in something i love so much.

i just feel so... lonely, sometimes. everybody has that "someone else" to talk to and i still don't...

the bright side of this is that i still have myself. despite how i may feel, i still have the worlds within myself which i -and only i- can control. i will never get rid of myself. ^_^ and i will do as much as i can to help myself out of my own mess.

pro: i have curves.

con: men are dogs.

an example of making a possible weakness a strength in my life.

i'm addicted to this show! Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon: Live Action (PGSM)!!! i watched the whole series and the movie a week before school was out, but now i wanna watch it again. corny, i know. also, i've found hellsing, chobits, noir, and other good things i can watch! ssssqqqquuueee~~~!!!!! this is the way to my heart. this and chocolate.

last nite was erica's 20th birthday. i saw her last nite and gave her a cake and her gift and a card, then i came home and stayed up all nite doodling on photoshop. i had a creative nite! i made a gif with my face trying on--well--different faces. okay, okay... it may not look like me that much... or at all, but i tried. it's all done with the mouse. horray for mouse skillz!!!

hopefully it shows up!

some things are good chunky. chunky peanut butter. chunky heels. chunky school pencils. chunky highlights. chunky hipped girls like me... hehe. i was inspired by the chunky book community on lj to start my own chunky book. a book that consists of art and poems of friends. sarah did something similar to this in early highschool, and i'd really love to start this again. i used to have "the notebook" for people to carry around in highschool, but now that people have jobs, and real classes, and huge lives to deal with, i think something more compact and less structural would be best. plus, this is a cheaper method--since i can buy it dollar tree and it won't be abused as badly so i won't have to replace it as much. thus, the chunky book.

maybe i can start one to send to friends. so many of my friends are either away for college or going away for college. i'll be going away myself, at some point. maybe this will be sendable?? i don't know... i possibly won't know unitl i start one. ^_^

this'll be a fun project!!!


...must remember to add this to my evergrowing list of goals.

An Altar For Myself.

an altar for myself--
you see--
i made from lies and mist;
and pointed fingers,
twisted hypocrisy--
the things that should not exist.
i could not resist,
for i was weary
of the tears
i wasted on the sill;
my mind,
my body--
rots my soul,
and sours my very will.
o' solace,
why tease?
why visit so briefly?
when the discouragement
waits at the end?
i moved,
i bowed,
a slight bend
so sweetly,
but a quarrel
still sits at the end.
inhale,
exhale,
again and again,
but still a virtue does not begin;
an altar for myself--
you see--
and only i
it can offend.

A. King

4.26.06